released January 5, 2017

Produced by a 19 year old Brendan Wright during the year of 2016

Bellevue Avenue, Rutland VT
318 Rounds and 202 Howe, Skidmore College, Saratoga Springs NY

Special Thanks to Mum, Dad, Special K, Aves, Carly, Jordan, Noah, Meg, and Tanen n' Friendz, The Squad, Lively Lucy's, The Coffee Exchange, Uncommon Grounds, Rick and Morty, McDonough, S. French, the Greek goddess of love, DJ B Dizzle, The Finnigans, and of course, Lois and Clark.


Philip’s Song

Robots stranded out in the ocean, full of feelings now,
So emotionally incompatible and unreliable,
I think we lack a certain substance,
a certain component that isn't replacing our love for making,
a lust for cutting clouds,

Don't hold on for too long, wasting time is all I've done,

Put the name in a song,
It'll make us feel better,
When I'm doing it wrong,
Think I'd rather just forget it...

These thoughts are never as deep as the rocks I feel with my feet,
Tumbling dungeons and colorful melodies,

I'm taking inspiration from the lack of motivation that would alter our decision that would lead to division,
but you know,
it's your decision,

(I see things differently after you and me...
...to lie in a field and count all the stars...)

Rabbit

Fake friends,
and drinking buddies,
can they not see I'm insecure about my body?

It screams at me as I trip,
I fall on words describing how fine I am,
the mirrors find me when I'm hiding,

and 'round my cheeks of anxious carving,
out comes me,
impression starving...

I can't claim just what I'm thinking,
of confessions to write it makes me scared that you're not eating,
and I'm seeing all these lights as if they wanted us to blind,
it seems they only needed us to buy into all these false perceptions of our lives,

I know I'm not the only one

Tin Foil Hat Demographic

Entertainment on the news,
I'm getting fed by a spoon,
I threw up on the high chair and then I ran from the room,
I drank in disappointment,
and found my face on the ground,
I saw it on the TV,
then Trump blamed Obama for a horrid little mishap only guns could control,
Let's blame it on the country,
maybe wage a tiny war on a silly little picture, an annoying little scripture,
another mindless army chanting "ALL HAIL SPONGEGAR",

'cuz life is what happens when you're making plans,
I gotta let go of what I see for once,
I'm wasting time to save my mind.

I'm trying to fall back down

North Woods

I got myself trapped in the basement,
I got myself with no place to go,
and even though you call it something you think I'm gonna lose,
I think there's no flame on this fuse,

'cuz I saw it long ago,
years too young to hold,
but it meant more than I could ever let you know,

Resevoirs,
dances,
and shooting stars,
You found a place in all my thoughts,
Who couldn't call that love?
When i was holding...when I was holding...

I got myself locked in the basement,
I got myself with no place to go,
and even though you call it something you think I'm gonna lose,
I think there's no flame on this fuse.

(Skidmore Song)

I fell in love with the girl in the blue,
she made me a cake and said "someday, I'll marry you"
and even though I haven't met you for more than 30 seconds of my life,
I think I'm falling head over heels for that girl I met last night,

but I think it isn't working,
'cuz when I put down this guitar the spell will surely be broken,
and I'm left in the dark,

But girl,
I thought it meant something,
But girl,
we could be such good friends.

Daisy Rey

if this could be what you wanna see,
would you wanna try tonight?

You "question me",
or could you mean "meant to be"?
What I've been chasing towards,
(You know, I can't act no more..)

To come along,
I'll play your song,
we'll fall in love in a coffee shop,
we'll see the dark,
I'll play your heart,
walk in the park

I want to feel love, I want to feel love,
and acting in a way that my lover is deranged,

and could it be what you want to see?
would you wanna try when I say goodbye?
let's fight tonight,

and you'll try to be the girl for me,
but foresee,
there's a girl I've been dreaming towards,
I'm sorry I'm acting bored,

You'll come around,
I'll play your sound,
we'll hit the ground in a college town,
we'll fight for days,
love turns to hate,
sad songs to make,

We'll stay up all night,
Submarine,
with my rambles on repeat,
I'll play the boy you might like,
performing several autumn nights,
'cuz I tried to feel love,
I want to feel love,
and acting in a way,
I'm hoping it will change,
oh someday
........

and I've come to find that you're not mine anymore,
and this whole idea that just appeared like advertising in a store,
that life without you darling is just the same when I take off this mask,
placed upon when trying to fall,
but now I see it's just an act,

Someday we'll meet,
maybe have a cup of tea

(oh someday)
meanwhile…

I'm screaming out the window in hopes my heart will slow down,
I feel I'm higher than a kite,
and I don't take no drugs,
did she slip it in my mug?
I'm terrified that you won't find anything you've dreamed of,
I can't promise that I'll live up to any preconceived ideas you have of me,
but I'll buy your cup of coffee,

I'm thinking in slow motion,
I'm drowning in the ocean,
this love potion I drank has got me feeling so alive for the first time in such a long time

"what doesit goits got me down"

I don't want you to think that you don't mean anything to me,
I don't want you to be what you're expected to be,
I don't want you to think that you don't mean anything,
I don't want you to be just another thing for me.

(listen listen listen listen listen)

Nostalgia for 2012

Hamlet

Ophelia won't you come back to bed?
Ophelia won't you drop out of my head?

..and i have fought all my life,
you got me walkin 'round, around the same time,
you got me walkin 'round, breaking down,
trying to find another girl to talk to,
but i miss you, when i had you

'cuz you left me alone,
'cuz i left you alone,
'cuz you left me alone.

Almost Fun

so lyrically pretentious,
conforming and horrendous,
when it comes to what I say,
Can you believe that I’m not here?
That I’m not functioning for income?
Not learning masochism makes me poor in what i take,
but so rich in what I make,

Cuz I’ve got a life girl,
outside of all these boxes and id show you if you wanted,
cuz you wouldn’t believe,
you wouldn’t believe that,
nothing really matters what we say,

but they got us on a leash,
so everything repeats,

so go ahead and drink your vodka,
run around the park to light ya big one off,
"aint no one gotta tell us how to live our lives!!"
its on tv,
this whole “rebellion"!

i got an ad telling me that i gotta be a better person,
but i got to be honest,
all the things about the face,
(the face she made in like 50 fucking selfies),
fucking self suppressed the shit out of me,
its all fake,
its all empty,
I don’t wanna die in a world that they told me to buy.

A passive face with a scream underneath,
these disposable dreams,
they must define me,
Do I stand for anything in your eyes,
besides a quick little fuck,
or a toy to go buy
all the little things The Little Mermaid said were nice?
It’s a man you can’t replace, who’ll love you everyday…
…in that case, I’m broken.

These bitter stained coffee hands latch on to lovers I’ll never love,
cuz’ Im hopelessly romantic,
but hopelessly unreliable,
and frantic with worry,
I know that’s not desirable,

But I think I’m happy acting a little “crazy" here and there.
But I think its normal.
At least I know me,
despite what they’ll say,
Everything's gonna be okay
Are things gonna be okay?

Aphrodite

defeated,
on the floor,
i gave my life to you girl,
so let it go.

innocence from my youth,
lost with love,
out of tune,
without a boy to make it true,
without a light to find in you.

you got the queen of the "entitled" generation

i know how you feel all alone,
you're leading guys to your door,
you're begging guys to your bed,
you're fucking up,
you're fucking up my head,

you got me taking pictures to portray a certain life,
you got me trapped in the basement,
and i swear i don’t know why i give you one last try.

Fluoxetine and Caffeine

and I'll stay with you in the parking lot of your own thoughts where theres no where left to hide from the inside scars

Everybody's got their demons scratching underneath,
and I know you've got some explaining waiting,
finally fading when your evidence becomes too self hating,
replicated in a response too damn educated,

Oh honey, someday you'll find that these troubles will be so far behind,
and oh sweetheart,
you'll fall in love with that girl you find yourself thinking of,
and oh darling,
you'll find a way to change your fears like you change your clothes,
and oh sweet pea,
I'll love, I'll love,

How dare you call it cold when you been there,
staying up all night on the floor chair,
and praying for a crack of light,
you're gonna hurt yourself tonight,
but I'll be there keeping ties with your life with a dead hand,
I swear you'll stay alive,

and I'll fall in love with you on a Sunday afternoon,
and I promise to see it through that the world won't skip that day,
'cuz I've got to talk to you and kiss you in the rain,
in front of that coffee shop,
the one I've been dreaming of,
and I've finally heard your name,
and I'm done with this whole game,

Oh honey, someday you'll find that these troubles will be so far behind,
and oh darling,
just say the word and I'll be at your beck and call,
and oh darling,
you'll find a way to change your fears like you change your clothes,
and oh sweet pea,
I'll love, I'll love,

.........

I fell in love.